Warning this contains mental health triggers. ** *Also I just wanted to shed light to those on here working and selling insurance of how the actions of people in this profession have effected me
I’m a 26 year old female in MO who suffers from Bipolar 2 along with extreme anxiety. Ive been able to manage my bipolar pretty well for the last few years after doing intense outpatient DBT therapy. But as of recently I’ve been noticing my highs and lows are getting bad again and need to get myself back into therapy. A month ago I had a mania where I didn’t sleep for like 4 days straight. When I finally crashed I crashed so hard. I was in a very dark depression and sleeping 16 hrs a day. I slept through 8 different alarms set on 2 different clocks one day and was going to be 30 mins late to work. They fired me over it. I needed mental help so so badly and now I just lost my income and my insurance and a job I was absolutely in love with and brought me most of my joy in life.
This obviously worsened my depression ever more. But I needed to help myself and was told by HR I could continue with their insurance for $340 a month, which I can’t afford without a job!? I need to go to the hospital before I even think of looking into employment again. So I sought out Obamacare and medicaid. Literally first google search I did I put in my name and contact info to get started. Within seconds my phone started blowing up. And I mean BLOWING UP!!! Non stop, I quickly had to figure out how to mute calls from unknown numbers because if not I was gonna smash my phone in a rage of built up anger of everything I was already dealing with, and now my phone was buzzing every 30 seconds. I believe I counted like 64 calls within the first 12 hrs of putting in my info.
Fast forward and it’s been 3 weeks since I did that. I ended up getting a job because I had no other choice at this point. I’m still depressed and still feel heart broken from losing my last job. I found insurance that’s only $200 a month from someone telling me about COBRA. But the calls and texts haven’t stopped. I get an average of 10 texts a day and about 25 phone calls. I don’t know how to explain this but people trying to call or text me when I’m in a depressive episode is my biggest fear. It ruins me and makes my anxiety so bad I hide from the world and ignore everyone already. Now adding these insurance people harassing the shit out of my phone has made me lose my mind, life and happiness. I’m trying to get into a few different therapy’s and doctors but I have to have unsaved numbers calls muted so I never know if it’s a therapist calling me back saying they have an opening or another insurance person. Even though the calls are muted, when I’m on my phone they still come across the top banner. I can’t escape this terror. Now I don’t reply to anyone cause my friends and families messages are lost in between a bunch of random numbers texting me.
I’ve isolated myself completely. For the first time in my life I felt truly suicidal. I still do. I’ve thought about it for years but always knew I could actually never go through with it, but within the past few weeks that feeling went away and I’m actually terrified that I could do it now. The wall broke down in my brain and now the only wall that hasn’t been broken is that I refuse to think of a plan to do it.
I’m not saying this is all because of the insurance people calling me that has made me suicidal, but I needed health insurance primarily for my own mental health and instead I am facing a reality where I thought I was taking a positive step to help myself and the people who are suppose to help have pushed me down even further. And also this is just straight up harassment. How much money does health insurance companies fucking make to be so persistent in getting you to choose their plan.
Anyways, in conclusion, Americas healthcare system is fucking trash.
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Warning this contains mental health triggers. ** *Also I just wanted to shed light to those on here working and selling insurance of how the actions of people in this profession have effected me I’m a 26 year old female in MO who suffers from Bipolar 2 along with extreme anxiety. Ive been able to manage my bipolar pretty well for the last few years after doing intense outpatient DBT therapy. But as of recently I’ve been noticing my highs and lows are getting bad again and need to get myself back into therapy. A month ago I had a mania where I didn’t sleep for like 4 days straight. When I finally crashed I crashed so hard. I was in a very dark depression and sleeping 16 hrs a day. I slept through 8 different alarms set on 2 different clocks one day and was going to be 30 mins late to work. They fired me over it. I needed mental help so so badly and now I just lost my income and my insurance and a job I was absolutely in love with and brought me most of my joy in life. This obviously worsened my depression ever more. But I needed to help myself and was told by HR I could continue with their insurance for $340 a month, which I can’t afford without a job!? I need to go to the hospital before I even think of looking into employment again. So I sought out Obamacare and medicaid. Literally first google search I did I put in my name and contact info to get started. Within seconds my phone started blowing up. And I mean BLOWING UP!!! Non stop, I quickly had to figure out how to mute calls from unknown numbers because if not I was gonna smash my phone in a rage of built up anger of everything I was already dealing with, and now my phone was buzzing every 30 seconds. I believe I counted like 64 calls within the first 12 hrs of putting in my info. Fast forward and it’s been 3 weeks since I did that. I ended up getting a job because I had no other choice at this point. I’m still depressed and still feel heart broken from losing my last job. I found insurance that’s only $200 a month from someone telling me about COBRA. But the calls and texts haven’t stopped. I get an average of 10 texts a day and about 25 phone calls. I don’t know how to explain this but people trying to call or text me when I’m in a depressive episode is my biggest fear. It ruins me and makes my anxiety so bad I hide from the world and ignore everyone already. Now adding these insurance people harassing the shit out of my phone has made me lose my mind, life and happiness. I’m trying to get into a few different therapy’s and doctors but I have to have unsaved numbers calls muted so I never know if it’s a therapist calling me back saying they have an opening or another insurance person. Even though the calls are muted, when I’m on my phone they still come across the top banner. I can’t escape this terror. Now I don’t reply to anyone cause my friends and families messages are lost in between a bunch of random numbers texting me. I’ve isolated myself completely. For the first time in my life I felt truly suicidal. I still do. I’ve thought about it for years but always knew I could actually never go through with it, but within the past few weeks that feeling went away and I’m actually terrified that I could do it now. The wall broke down in my brain and now the only wall that hasn’t been broken is that I refuse to think of a plan to do it. I’m not saying this is all because of the insurance people calling me that has made me suicidal, but I needed health insurance primarily for my own mental health and instead I am facing a reality where I thought I was taking a positive step to help myself and the people who are suppose to help have pushed me down even further. And also this is just straight up harassment. How much money does health insurance companies fucking make to be so persistent in getting you to choose their plan. Anyways, in conclusion, Americas healthcare system is fucking trash.
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